I just wonder why...

Why?
I get up and out of bed,
Try to forget all those things we said.
It's now over for good,
I promised myself to leave it right there here I stood.

People always tell me things will get better,
But I find myself writing and deleting letters
How did we fall so far apart,
You left me not knowing where to start.

I am here now trying to find out how to survive,
And struggling to just keep myself alive.
I remember when you were a hero in my eyes,
You were always there to give me a suprise.
But those are just long lost memories of mine,
Maybe this is our life design.

I spent so many days cold and lonely,
I believed that you were my one and only.
There are some things in my head
I'll take it till life ends
But it won't be all that love that I gave.

You made me so emotionless,
And you gave me all this stupid stress.
I try to believe in things I can't see,
But is there even hope for me!
My back is up against a wall,
And it's hard for me to keep thinking all

Life just isn't worth it anymore,
You left me standing at the door.
You said it's time to say goodbye,
And I just wondered... why???
And i still wonder and will forever...